You are coming in HOT. Once again I will being entering the new year single. 2018 I put myself out there. I got hurt. Was reminded why all guys are shit. But I had really good times. I can’t hate 2018. I got closer to one of my friends that I am so thankful for. I say Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, Beyoncé and Jay-Z in concert, along with the Charli XCX, Camila Cabello, Anne-Marie, Chloe x Halle, DJ Khalid, and Snow Patrol as the openers to these amazing concerts. I WENT TO DISNEY! I’ve had good times an left my comfort zone. I finally got my hip fixed and it is feeling great.
However, there were the struggles. I was hurt, really bad. It still hurts. I struggled a lot with my anxiety. I’ve had to cut some people off. My sister had a miscarriage. I lost my Lili, which took a part of me that I will never get back.
But 2019. I will be welcoming my new niece into the world in March. I can’t wait to meet her, while she now has an name, I will always call her Elsa Spiny as her brother and sister kindly named her.
Maybe I’ll find love, maybe I won’t. I am bringing Human Carpet with me so beware.
I have come to a place where I am done trying to only please others. I matter too. My feelings and opinions matter. Anyone who cares about me should care about how I feel and want me to express them, not go to great lengths to ignore them.
But I have also learned that forgiveness is important. I won’t forget all that someone has done to me, but carrying that negative energy of hate and sadness, only brings me done, and there won’t be time for that in 2019.
I said 2018 would be my year, but there were setbacks. I learned from them though, I grew from them, so I guess it was my year in a way.
2019 here I come girl. I got a shiny sequin dress to welcome you.