Dear 2019

Dear 2019,

You are coming in HOT. Once again I will being entering the new year single. 2018 I put myself out there. I got hurt. Was reminded why all guys are shit. But I had really good times. I can’t hate 2018. I got closer to one of my friends that I am so thankful for. I say Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, Beyoncé and Jay-Z in concert, along with the Charli XCX, Camila Cabello, Anne-Marie, Chloe x Halle, DJ Khalid, and Snow Patrol as the openers to these amazing concerts. I WENT TO DISNEY! I’ve had good times an left my comfort zone. I finally got my hip fixed and it is feeling great.

However, there were the struggles. I was hurt, really bad. It still hurts. I struggled a lot with my anxiety. I’ve had to cut some people off. My sister had a miscarriage. I lost my Lili, which took a part of me that I will never get back.

But 2019. I will be welcoming my new niece into the world in March. I can’t wait to meet her, while she now has an name, I will always call her Elsa Spiny as her brother and sister kindly named her.

Maybe I’ll find love, maybe I won’t. I am bringing Human Carpet with me so beware.

I have come to a place where I am done trying to only please others. I matter too. My feelings and opinions matter. Anyone who cares about me should care about how I feel and want me to express them, not go to great lengths to ignore them.

But I have also learned that forgiveness is important. I won’t forget all that someone has done to me, but carrying that negative energy of hate and sadness, only brings me done, and there won’t be time for that in 2019.

I said 2018 would be my year, but there were setbacks. I learned from them though, I grew from them, so I guess it was my year in a way.

2019 here I come girl. I got a shiny sequin dress to welcome you.

Your Girl,



The Story Of My Virginity

Let’s tell a story that took place just about this time many years ago.

Picture this: Newly 16 year old. Never been kissed. Very dorky. Hair=awful (that’s not needed, just wanted to share). Sophomore in High school.

I was getting close to this senior boy as one does. But then New Years Eve came. I didn’t hear from him at midnight, want to know why? He was hooking up with some other girl. Came back to school with a huge hickey on his neck. I believe we had kissed prior to this or maybe that did happen in January, Either way, very anti-climatic. It happened in the auditorium at the school.

Fast forward to February. Now clearly this guy is awful. But not to a horny, virgin named Tiffany.

I was staying after school for help in math and he texted me that I should come to his house. I thought he was still dating that girl he had kissed, but he claimed they broke up. Did they really? I have no idea to this day.

Anyways, I lied a little bit so my parents let me go to his house. Now, I knew what was going to go down and it did. What a time. He had just been kicked out of his house and was living with a friend. We did the deed on the bathroom floor at one point and there was cat shit on the floor next to the cat box. The dye on the condom stained my bra.

It was raining. It hurt. There was also huge cobwebs everywhere. Despite it being a time, I could not wait to tell my friends Monday at school. They didn’t believe me. But that asshole told everyone so within a few days the whole school knew.

I’ll be celebrating the 10 year anniversary in February 2021. Be ready.

I Hate October

Last October my precious kitty passed away from cancer. 2 1/2 weeks ago my sweet little dog Lili passed away at 11. She had a lot of health issue that are common among Westie’s. She was like my baby. I miss her so much. I miss her waking me up in the middle of the night for belly scratches and her giving me kisses all the time. I’d do anything to have her back.